So update on the eerie quietness of this week: not sure if it’s related or not, but apparently every recruiter that was able to convince his/her boss to let them spend a week in Las Vegas is at the LinkedIn Talent Connect conference right now. So yeah, that *might* explain why absolutely nothing is happening this week.
I found this out while stalking a recruiter on Twitter. I assumed she was at a workshop being sponsored by LinkedIn somewhere here in the SF Bay Area. But apparently it’s a huge affair and so let’s hope that this is why absolutely no recruiting is actually happening this week. Continue reading
So I don’t know what is going on. After a few weeks of nice activity– interviews, emails from recruiters, etc– it’s deadly silent right now. Nothing. Nothing. What is going on??? People point out a few things. One, yesterday was a holiday for some people (Columbus Day) so some people may be out of office. Two, it’s officially Q4 so things are busy. But Lordy– nothing. Radio silence. Continue reading
So yet another week where I have nothing positive to report. I did have one company ask me for my list of references and I got CRAZY EXCITED and started looking for apartments (really just out of excitement more than anything else) and just hoping hoping maybe this is the end. Then I talked to the recruiter on Friday afternoon and it turns out the company is down to 3-4 final candidates. This strikes me as kind of odd: 1 or 2– that makes sense. It’s come to 2 in another situation where I wasn’t selected. And it sucks. But 3-4? I guess a lot can be learned in talking to references to sway the decision one way or the other. But shoot, you’d think they’d have a stronger sense of who they want at this point. So just waiting and hoping I guess. Continue reading
So let’s see– it’s Tuesday. This week has been ok. Sent out a couple of job applications and am eyeballing a few roles that I should look into tomorrow. Had a phone screen today. Not sure that anything from the past couple of weeks is going to work out– haven’t heard from the teams though I checked in with one recruiter today.
So in the Bay area, there has been a rash of teachers being arrested for illegal incidents. Some involve drug sales. I think one had to do with molestation perhaps. It’s becoming something of an epidemic. Last week, this male teacher in Albany was arrested for an indecent act with somebody under the age of 14. It was kind of fascinating b/c the guy was young (28) and Asian. And generally speaking, I really like it when young guys are teachers for young kids– kids always like them and look up to them. I still remember a 4th grade teacher at my elementary school, Mr. Lee. He was really nice to me. I’ve actually googled him a number of times wondering what he’s up to. Never found him. Continue reading
Hey there, anonymous blog. It’s me. Spent a sad day by myself– not that I didn’t have offers for company (b/c strangely there were a good number of invitations to go out and get together). Just was feeling too crap to be of any fun to anybody. So decided to spare others my bouts of spontaneous crying and just spend the day on my own.
I’ve hit a really low point. I don’t know if this is temporary and if I’ll find strength come Monday and do what I can to get sorted. But I just feel really hopeless (I know– I’ve said it before but this time, I really mean it!) I think the rejection on Friday was a real fork to the eye. My friend told me not to take it personally but it’s hard not to. I feel like Google hates me despite the 3.5 years of good work that I did for them. Can I tell you a really random secret? A few years ago, Google really effed up and screwed a bunch of employees over. Well, in truth Google screws people over all the time. My friend, an employment lawyer, pointed it out– it’s a fairly obvious mistake with monetary implications. I never thought about it too much but it’s always been something that has lingered. I think the statute has passed to do anything about it but I still have the printouts from work showing the mistake. I always wonder if I could/should give Google a final “eff you” and contact a lawyer and try to squeeze out some revenge money. In my dreams, I guess.
So no happy news for this end of the week. I was just rejected by Google, my former employer for 3.5 years, for a contract role that I had interviewed for. It really kind of smarts, this one, b/c I really wonder who they are going with; my value proposition throughout the process is that I am familiar with the company, have successfully done big projects and could easily jump in and out and get it done. To be honest, the entire time, I was a little bit suspicious about whether they were even going to fill the position, given some information that I found after the fact. It wasn’t my dream job but it was one that I thought was symbiotic for all involved. I feel really tired and kind of weepy and I am guessing that this could be a nice trigger for calling it a day and relaxing. Continue reading
I feel like such a Debbie Downer these days. The job search has really taken a toll on my sense of happiness and I feel like I’m near the end stages of the grief cycle. First I was really driven to get onto my next thing– my last job was such a shitshow that it really was an effort to escape. I don’t think that was denial but it was basically emotionless go-getting (which to be honest, is not that bad and is what I should be doing now). Then it was anger: why not me??? I think I’m probably in something of a depression right now– just generally feeling lethargic and down. The last phase of the grief cycle is acceptance which I don’t know really fits with what I am going through. I feel like I’m going through the motions of interviewing but sometimes it feels like “make-believe.” I’ve done so many interviews and the outcomes are always so disappointing that I feel like I’m going about this job search mechanically and with no passion at all. Which I guess is ok but sometimes I feel like I’m not taking things seriously.
I was talking to my cousin the other day. She recently moved and was able to square away a job pretty quickly through personal connections. I asked her how her job was going and she said that she loved it. Now, I have to say, my cousin and I are polar opposites. Where I am kind of a sourpuss and unethusiastic for the large part, my cousin is bubbly and excited and really (almost unbelievably) positive. So when she said that she loved her job– I was excited for her but at the same time, I wondered: have I ever LOVED a job? Have I ever LOVED anything? Continue reading
Still job searching. Still painful. For some reason, last week felt like a legitimate week to take off and relax a little bit. I had two interviews so maybe that’s why I felt like I’d done enough in the job search process. Also was feeling generally exhausted and sad so a small break seemed to make sense.
One of my bschool classmates, one of the last in my class to sort out a job, received TWO job offers last week and ended up accepting the one that she was more partial to (that also happened to be more of a stretch role, whereas the one she had turned down was nearly identical to what she’d done years ago– so, good for her). I feel really happy for her– she’d been in the same boat as me since summer 2011 and had been floating from friend to friend’s house in the past year. She was also able to successfully transition from one type of marketing to the type that she wanted to do. She gives me hope: I am not concerned about being unemployed right now. I don’t have bills to pay and hey, life is ok (except that my parents are driving me nuts). But I do get concerned that having a gaping hole in my resume will make me increasingly less desirable as a candidate and when I see that my friends are able to get job offers after a lengthy period of unemployment, it gives me a certain level of hope. My friend is also older (in her mid to late 30s) and that also gives me hope that you’re never too old to take on a new challenge. Continue reading
So I meant to write a post yesterday but then I got really lazy. It was the 11th anniversary of 9/11 and there was a touch of sadness and respect was paid to the tragedies that cost so many people their lives and loved ones. I feel like everyone can remember where they were and what they were doing when news of 9/11 was released. I personally was unemployed and about to head to a yoga class. It was a Thursday morning. And sadly, 9/11 changed everything for everyone. In my mind, it was the shift that impacted our sense of security in every sense of the word.
I’ve been feeling slightly anxious b/c it’s now September and I have been unemployed now for 5.5 months. It’s not awful but time is creeping by. I don’t mind being unemployed b/c I have the benefit of being able to live at my parents and spend $0. I have been reading a lot of books and hey, Fall tv has started so I am staying busy. But I’m just worried about what having a gap in my resume will mean. I don’t think I would get turned down for a job because of it, especially given the current economic situation. But I can see my interview requests tanking if I have to admit that I stopped working in 2012 and not 2013. Continue reading
The startup scene here in the SF Bay area is so big right now. Investment money is available and there are so many smart and driven kids (I call them kids) that are trying to change the world and be their own boss. It’s definitely a professional decision: trying to do something different because you have the smarts to execute. But I would argue it’s also partially a lifestyle decision: not wanting to enter the hell that is the corporate machine because it can only suck the lifeblood out of your creativity and sense of purpose.
I went on an interview last week at a smaller company– which one would assume would mean that it has the fervor of being a startup. And… fail. Part of it is location in the South Bay portion of the Bay Area. Most startups these days are located in the Peninsula or in the SOMA region of SF. It feels exciting. And perhaps I’m biased because I grew up in the South Bay but whereas South Bay just feels run down and static, the Peninsula and SF feels alive and new. You see hipsters and artists and ad people and it just envelopes you in the excitement. Continue reading